1. Closet

I opened my closet, I looked at it carefully...only to realised that there is a spiderweb in it.
I wonder how long I didn't clean my closet.
I noticed some of the shirts are not belong to me, some of it too small (probably 10 years ago punya), some of it too big (probably I borrowed from dad or brother), and some of it too outdated.
Consider my closet turnover is once a year...that's all probably what I have. *sigh*
Maybe I should really buy some better clothes.

On the other hand, my project started eleven weeks ago.
I managed to understand most of the part in my main journal.
CONGRATS!
I submitted my report on Wednesday but I have a feeling Dr. Y won't be happy.
Although I found no mistake but I think I cut a lot information and I forgot to define my notations. >.<''
BRAVO!
Next week, I'm going to present...I hope I can deliver my presentation as best as possible and  I can compensate the thing that lacked of in my report.
Basically, my Project One will going to end soon.

For Project Two, is the one that I worry the most.
I don't know how to do, neither do my supervisor, neither do all the 11 books that I read. fml.

I feel like I want to hug someone. =(

Half Graduate!

Finally I took all my final papers!
Ten subjects...ten difficult subjects...especially yesterday one.

My lecturer is a liar!
He said,"Very easy one, very easy one...don't worryyy".
He also gave us some tips...but..
After I flipped through the paper, my heart stopped beating for two seconds.
I finally understand what he means.
Very easy my arse...I think he means very easy to die...
Don't worry? after you die, what else you need to worry?

Then I say straight to him,"Sir, nobody happy."
My "A" probably will fly way just like that. T.T
After the final, we planning to have dinner for celebration but I lost all my mood to eat anything.
So, all of us just balik rumah. I also balik rumah and menangis.
Y U NO GIVE ME A???


However I already half graduate.
Now, only left my project with my supervisor.
Then I can GRADUATE!
Well at least I need not to attend classes anymore. Hurray!

Meanwhile let's have holiday for 1 week!

My course

Haihz,
Those assignments are really killing me.
Everyday I tried to solve at least one question.
But ended up I used several days to solve 1 question.
Not sure I really couldn't 'see' the question or I'm just a plain idiot.

Next week will be Week 8...
Here I am, still trying to solve the FIRST assignment of every subjects.
Not to mention Stochastic haven't had any assignment yet. (I can't even imagine how tough the question can be since the subject is so killing me).

Thinking of doing PhD, but now I rather give up.
Comparing myself with overseas students, only those smart students will go to Master or PhD.
Unfortunately and definitely I'm not those smart student.

Dr Chin told us that,"Only smart people will go to PhD, those less smart...will take Master."
After the class, he will tell us some stories to demotivate us about studying Master. (every fucking week!)
Haha... then I will started to imagine,"Why am I here?". (damn funny wei)
No doubt his class is more boring and enjoyable compared with last time.

This is how I look like when....

... he asked me some questions...









...he told us that this subject is very easy...








...he asked us whatever we understand the subject or not...









I'm really really do not know why every week I feel so demotivated to study.
Probably I stayed at home/room too long?
Probably the subject is too easy and too difficult?
Probably I lack of motivation?