Independent

Sometimes when you study, you are hoping to be the one who knows everything.
It is because you hope to be smarter than everyone or maybe you hope to gain enough knowledge compare to others.
Of course, it is sort of satisfaction when you know everything.
So when people ask,"Have you done your assignments/ tutorials/homework?"
I can confidently and proudly say,"Yes, I did."
I hold the same principle since standard 2.

This is because during standard 2, my class monitor is a hardworking person. He is a Malay.
What he likes?
He likes to get Number 1.
Number 1 to come early and stand in front during assembly.
Number 1 to hand in homework.
Number 1 to leave during break.
Number 1 in almost everything.
Until one day I hand in quickly than he do.
Yes, I like to defeat others when I 'tak puas hati'.
I think I need to thank him for making me who I am today.

Besides that, you know you can depend on yourself. And less rely on others.

But...

What if you don't know and others depend on you because they think you are smart?
Then I need to start to think thousand of ways to solve the problem.
I do not hope to disappoint other people or..I do not hope to disappoint myself.

Today is the day I feel like want to collapse because everyone is looking at me for assignment.
Today is also the day I hope someone can outsmart me, so I looking at people instead.

Now, how I going to do the assignment?

Degree Convo

Attended my convo yesterday.

Mami knew I love Doraemon.
So she bought me RM60 flower with Doraemon in it.
Thanks papa, mami and sis.

The smell of the flower is so strong, its still lingering in my room.

Someone

Sometimes...
...when you are too boring to do your assignments (I have 6 assignments which need to hand-in in the next 3 weeks)...

OR

...when you are too tired because you need to read and read and read to prepare for Research Proposal (I have 2 books to read)...

OR

...when you are too stress to prepare for your coming test and quiz...

You hope someone is there to help you, console you, giving you a hug or someone that can talk to you.

When is that 'someone' going to appear in my life?

My life mostly at home (room) > stuck in traffic jam > PC block > stuck in traffic jam > home (room)...

Looks like kinda hard to find 'someone'...