Sometimes when you study, you are hoping to be the one who knows everything.
It is because you hope to be smarter than everyone or maybe you hope to gain enough knowledge compare to others.
Of course, it is sort of satisfaction when you know everything.
So when people ask,"Have you done your assignments/ tutorials/homework?"
I can confidently and proudly say,"Yes, I did."
I hold the same principle since standard 2.
This is because during standard 2, my class monitor is a hardworking person. He is a Malay.
What he likes?
He likes to get Number 1.
Number 1 to come early and stand in front during assembly.
Number 1 to hand in homework.
Number 1 to leave during break.
Number 1 in almost everything.
Until one day I hand in quickly than he do.
Yes, I like to defeat others when I 'tak puas hati'.
I think I need to thank him for making me who I am today.
Besides that, you know you can depend on yourself. And less rely on others.
But...
What if you don't know and others depend on you because they think you are smart?
Then I need to start to think thousand of ways to solve the problem.
I do not hope to disappoint other people or..I do not hope to disappoint myself.
Today is the day I feel like want to collapse because everyone is looking at me for assignment.
Today is also the day I hope someone can outsmart me, so I looking at people instead.
Now, how I going to do the assignment?
4 comments:
haha, i can fully understand how u feel...but my aim in studying is juz to gain knowledge, not like many who juz wanna score in their exam.
Totally understand when people look up to you and depend on you. Its nice sometimes, but other times its really frustrating. Because it is a heavy responsibility. Very stressful, especially when people find you because they know you CAN and WILL do it and they don't do it themselves, more like taking advantage of your capability.
I hope an idea pops up in your head soon! :)
Well, I get that often too. I would suggest learn to say 'NO' to them. If you are busy with your schedule, tell them.
Help them to learn how to do it. Don't help them to do it.
@Orange: Yeah * high five* but sometimes I also feel I aim to score also. It is a satisfaction if you can gain knowledge and do well.
@Sunshine: Yeah, actually I hope I can depend on others but, well...great power comes with great responsibility! Hahaha XD
@Bravebear : Wow, isn't that what I said in your blog? Malunya. Don't worry, I ask them go back think themselves
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