Half Graduate!

Finally I took all my final papers!
Ten subjects...ten difficult subjects...especially yesterday one.

My lecturer is a liar!
He said,"Very easy one, very easy one...don't worryyy".
He also gave us some tips...but..
After I flipped through the paper, my heart stopped beating for two seconds.
I finally understand what he means.
Very easy my arse...I think he means very easy to die...
Don't worry? after you die, what else you need to worry?

Then I say straight to him,"Sir, nobody happy."
My "A" probably will fly way just like that. T.T
After the final, we planning to have dinner for celebration but I lost all my mood to eat anything.
So, all of us just balik rumah. I also balik rumah and menangis.
Y U NO GIVE ME A???


However I already half graduate.
Now, only left my project with my supervisor.
Then I can GRADUATE!
Well at least I need not to attend classes anymore. Hurray!

Meanwhile let's have holiday for 1 week!

My course

Haihz,
Those assignments are really killing me.
Everyday I tried to solve at least one question.
But ended up I used several days to solve 1 question.
Not sure I really couldn't 'see' the question or I'm just a plain idiot.

Next week will be Week 8...
Here I am, still trying to solve the FIRST assignment of every subjects.
Not to mention Stochastic haven't had any assignment yet. (I can't even imagine how tough the question can be since the subject is so killing me).

Thinking of doing PhD, but now I rather give up.
Comparing myself with overseas students, only those smart students will go to Master or PhD.
Unfortunately and definitely I'm not those smart student.

Dr Chin told us that,"Only smart people will go to PhD, those less smart...will take Master."
After the class, he will tell us some stories to demotivate us about studying Master. (every fucking week!)
Haha... then I will started to imagine,"Why am I here?". (damn funny wei)
No doubt his class is more boring and enjoyable compared with last time.

This is how I look like when....

... he asked me some questions...









...he told us that this subject is very easy...








...he asked us whatever we understand the subject or not...









I'm really really do not know why every week I feel so demotivated to study.
Probably I stayed at home/room too long?
Probably the subject is too easy and too difficult?
Probably I lack of motivation?




 

The First and The Last Two Choices

I'm thinking if one day I will be facing back the two choices...
Will I be making different kind of choice ?

Life full of choices.
Some people prefer intangible while others prefer tangible...
Some people prefer long term while others prefer short term...
Some people prefer imaginary while others prefer real...
Some people prefer no competition while others prefer fierce competition...
Some people prefer many while others prefer one...

Ironically, everything I do I do it for you.

That day, I have decided my purpose of life is one and the only one...

...to fulfill my ambition.

-I will stay but my life is short.